Loneliness
I look over my shoulder,
N don't find you there...
The lonely bench misses you in despair..
I still remember how you hated the wind blowing my hair,
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Welcome to my poetry blog with some of my work still in progress. You can read my poetry below!
I look over my shoulder,
N don't find you there...
The lonely bench misses you in despair..
I still remember how you hated the wind blowing my hair,
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An illusion ..
A phantom existence ..
A far fetched idea .....
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I saw you sitting there ,
gazing at the setting sun ..
As if in silent conversation.....
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The catastrophe doesn't seem to end,
The agony, the chaos, the grief looms large at evey bend.....
The only way to survive is to stay cocooned,
Every home is an island now, stay marooned !!!
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The human race is at risk of being extinct ,
Quite alarming for us , I think .....
And No ,
I don't mean the homosapiens will vanish ...
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I have come a long way since you left ....
With memories lashing back, I never slept !!!!
Bidding adieu to all that was so close to my heart,
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Have you ever imagined people you meet ,
Were similar to sun sets sweet ??
Crimson hues , surrounded by blues ,
Might not be brightly lit ....
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I don't aspire to be You
Or your copy or a mere shadow ....
I am me , basking, resonating in my high n low !!!
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Standing alone , bereft of company , I see a tree,
Tall , strong , thick skinned ..
Is this the impression , it wants me to see ??
A closer look and I find the wound,
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Within you , exists a stillness,
A soul stirring stillness,
Not to be mistaken as numbness ....
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To forget - is it a boon or bane ??
Cannot decide if the question is insane .....
The memory connects us to the past ...
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Heard a muffled cry while idling before the idiot box ,
My closet beckons..
Being a good samaritan , I uncovered the Pandora Box !!!!
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It is never easy being a mommy,
Don't say , no big deal ,dear me...
And to be called a mother of an eighteen year old
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Is it unconditional , unintentional unapolegetic .... This love ??
Or
A dainty dent adorning a plain wall just like an alcove ....
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Fables say , we are born from their ribs ..
The same flesh n blood makes us kin too..
Epitome of strength and valour ,
Courage , chivalry - virtues to name a few !!
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And she turned her pain into poetry ,
Unbearable but unacceptable to reveal the ugly agony.....
No takers for the torturous torment despair......
Burying it made sense , Possibly, it ceases to burn in absence of
air...
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He left her with a broken heart ,
Wobbling, wounded , writhing in pain .....
For him ... An end to another story .....
Shattered , rejected , what did she gain ??
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When the Fall comes ,
I eagerly wait for both of you ,
To sit and chat for a little while ,
Setting afloat giggles a few !!
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Isn't the ostentatious ocean a lot like a woman ???
Deep down
The dark crevices ,
The daring dungeons ,
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I can still hear the stiffled shrieks ,
And the raspy sounds of the foot steps ...
The lecherous looks ,
the iniquitous act on the helpless ....
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Dancing to my inner beat ,
Aligning to my own rhythm ...
Was when my bewildered self....
settled the mayhem !!!
The chaos ,I realised ,was tormenting terrible ,
Not finding sonorous solace ,
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She hides the most beautiful thing she possess ,
Her heart is a chaos gorgeous !!
She doesn't lift her eyelids ,
For she fears ...
Too much shall be given away , apart from the tears !!
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If asked what would I prefer -
Immortality without a face
Oradmiring befitting praise ??
I would settle for the latter... The adultation I receive from people who matter !!
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Everyone I notice, dons a mask?
Why to spend so much time to beautify, may I ask??
N i am not referring to the present scenario please....
But, in general there is a story behind every gesture to unlease!!!!
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You say n they don't understand ,
A silent chaos it cries.. Comprehend n not in communication the key lies !!!!
Between the 'Hello' n 'Good bye'
Could sense a lot of love, now bereft ....
Worthy wordless -
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As the day drowns in dreamy dusky silence ,
And
The golden sun blushes into crimson ...
Watching the marvellous myriad stars twinkling bright ,
And the sombre silence accentuating the twilight ....
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At times , I wonder where does the girl vanish,
Once the ladle n cradle come into play...
Being a mother completes a woman, is they all say!!!
But then, why this guilt
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Tears are funny characters-
Mythical, mysterious, morbid uncanny....
They have their own language,
Devoid of words n phrases, isn't that strange??
Do they taste the same everytime??
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Did I hear a knock ??
The door- closed for so long...
That I do not remember...
So was I in a deep slumber??
Or was it me who bolted it tight,
Crossing the threshold didn't seem right..
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There's world too outside my four walls , By no means I'd confine...
A peep from my window shows me the tell tale signs
Out there, is bare brilliant brightness,
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The touch still lingers fresh,
That I can feel its fervour,
The paths were meant not to part but stay together...
A goodbye, not fathomed, but had to be said...
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It is never enough..
Getting wet in the rain..
Feeling the nectar on your face,
Let the sorrow , the sedate sadness drain...
Isn't it???
Roaming for no reason..
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A veil over my face -
Is it an attempt to cloud my vision??
Nonchalantly, I do adorn,
The demure silence could mask my scorn!!
The sanguine strength comes from within...
Not bequeathed by you,
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She was a giver, always poured so much of love...
Didn't realise watering a rock won't make it soft!!
She was a flower,
Bloomed to do away gloom..
Didn't realise thorns will share her destiny n room!!!
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I open my window and there you are...
A myriad mysterious amorphous wanderer!!!
A few droplets here n there,
Assemble to give a shapeless shape..
Soft as white satin silk to drape.
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"You are an enigma, all women are like that..."
At times, I think, I know you all,
And then, you surprise me back!!!" And I am compelled to think,
Isn't everything around has layers to the brink
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Pain - an unwelcome, haughty guest...
Unrelenting, unwanted..
An unflinching quest!!
Has to be endured, if you wish to survive,
A skill imbibed painstakingly eager to contrive!!!
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I wish I could portray him in a new light...
A lovely thought or a pretty sight!!
He could be an unfinished poem of mine..
Forever, when ever, where ever carrying along,
A bit of me n a lot of thine!!!
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Limitations -
Part and parcel our life...
Bonded or bounded??
Two perspectives majorly in strife!!!
Do love and affection, bound you
Or do they set you free???
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I wonder sometimes, what's with this Moon???
I shall try unravelling the mystery soon...
Revolving around us, ah!! Well!!
it is just a satellite,
Still manages to invoke a Lover's delight???
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"The Doomsday is round the corner, humanity will not survive...
Even with the choicest few left, the economy will take a dive..."
So say all the persuasive potent people all around,
Losing the battle to a miniscule
entity,
forgoing their ground!!!
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"Men will be men", they say, with an occasional shrug in the shoulder...
I find this attitude more in people much older 😊😊
And one of my brows are raised invariably,
Is it not how it is supposed to be??
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It all begins with a small bickering,
A snide comment...
"So what ?? ", "Ohh come on,
don't over react to make him lament!!"
And don't you forget, our society is dominated by males,
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What does anybody aspire for in life -
self esteem to hold head high and money to comfort...
Affection of dear ones...These should keep me covered...
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We all seek brilliance,
No one wants to dwell in dreaded dark,
Gloomy, murky, mysterious.. like a distasteful remark!!
But will the fair enjoy their superiority if dark wasn't there...?
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"Don't be Sita" ,They roar...
"So yielding, so demure!!!
Betrothed on conditions met, swayam var was a hoax...
A valient act it was in all, no love coaxed!!!
And then
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